The Noisy Darkness

The images were blurred. I could't discern anything. The atoms forming the molecules scattered here and there. My fingers tried to touch any particle they could reach. Nothing, nothingness, complete darkness barred my way.

I shouted. My voice reverberated in the darkness. "Did you hear me?" silly me asking question to nothingness. It's there; I saw it, yet it's beyond the reach of my senses.

I could see nothing. I could feel nothing, I could taste nothing. I could smell nothing.

I could only hear my voice in the void. The noisy darkness.



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